Why does staying a virgin seem not as reality ?

i mean my mother had another talk i am turning 16 and since twelve i wanted to wait! to i was married. I can't see it any other way even my parents "ewww" told me that they were not virgins and had . "gross" i really don't see it any other way. I don't really want to date because i don't think im going to find a 15/16 year old dude that wants stay a virgin. If i lose my virginity to any one else i don't think i could ever forgive my self. Help !!! i want to give my future husband the one thing that no one else can give. It just seems that its impossible even though im not in a relationship and now have no one to have with.