What would you do( read on ) ?

Hi all. I need some help . I am at the end of my rope. I really can't take it any more. This year has been the worst one I have had . The year started off well enough , I had a job i liked. I guy I was crazy about and very happy with, things were just swimming along. Then things started to fall apart. I was down sized from that job. I am still out of work and can't find anything. The guy I know without a doubt is the guy I am meant to spend the rest of my life with went off with a chick he has no business with . He has lied to her and told her we were apart, but we weren't . So my life is shattered that way as well. Not to mention that due to monetary cirmustances I am forced to live with my Acholholic abusive mother. Who delights in telling me how much of a deadbeat I am and that I am just like my father who abandoned us over thirty years ago. I am also going to be forced to give up one of the only things I have left in the sport I play. My so called friends have stabbed me in the back as well. I was kicked out of a group I was in wrongly by some of my so called friends becuase they don't care about my feelings and would rather side with the guy and that "chick" then someone who has been a friend and helped all of them out with whatever they needed . So now it is Christmas eve I am sitting here alone , hurt and heartbroken. No love , no happiness and no hope. I just got done listening to my Mom tell me yet again that I should have not been born and that she wishes she lost me when she was carrying me . Because I am a low life just like my dad. I know I will hear this again in the morning as well. How would any of you handle being in my situation? I have been dealing with a lot of negative crap for years. I really am at the end. Tell me how would you get things going right . Tell me how you would be able to do it without ending it all. Or would you look at that as an option. I apprciate any and all help here . Thanks